this is my second month of work.
i'm indeed a 大人 now.
earning money and feeding myself and my loved ones. =)

i think i should change my sitting position in the office.
chose to sit facing the outside because i thought the outside world would motivate me to quickly finish my work and break free from the office each day. haa!
but now, i never know who is standing behind me even though i have already (deliberately) brought a mirror here and placed it right in front of me.
earlier on, hulky nick stood right behind me while i was checking out blogs la!
boo!

i'm getting busier day by day.
didnt even have any time for blog entries yesterday.

meetings every now and then.
and i realize i can no longer fully concentrate and listen to someone's speech (during meetings) ever since i graduated from university.
i've probably used up all my "concentration potions".
hmpff~
cant help but feel like sleeping or even half-close my eyes or pretend to be rubbing my eyes when i was in fact trying to catch moments of rest. haa!

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things with baby's room are DAMN DAMN DAMN bad.
it is THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS bad.

baby was so upset last night that, for the first time ever, she couldnt get to sleep.
my sleeping monster who possesses the power to fall asleep within 5seconds is gone. =(
i probably took 30mins to fall asleep ( as in really knock out), and throughout this particular period, baby couldnt help but toss around and sigh. i also suspect that she cried. hmmm~

things are so bad.
(yes, "are". PRESENT TENSE.)

when we returned to baby's house (yes, house. not home! there is a difference ok! a house is NOTHING but a PHYSICAL AREA, but a home is where you feel most comfortable being in and look forward to returning to!) last night, i literally FORCED/COMPELLED/COERCED greetings out of my damn mouth. i said "hello" with a frozen smile on my face. and then guess what?! NOBODY RESPONDED.
how cool huh?!

FUCK YOU!

i dont understand how such disgustingly unfair treatment can actually exist in a "family".
everyone is sacrificed and made unhappy in one way or another just to satisfy one pathetic individual.

baby says even if we were to break up, she'll jolly well rent a room outside.
now there is no "home". she only stays in a "house".

yucks! the thought of you disgusts me to the core.