thank god it's friday!
hooray!

i was reminded by baby that i am due to knock off at 530 today, not 6.
gosh. how could i have forgotten something so significant? haa~

yesterday was a bad bad bad day.
i was soooOOO upset with myself for not being able to satisfy what is expected of me by others.

like i explained to baby last night, i never thought that a relationship is only an affair between two individuals.
it's the coming-together of two families.

sigh.
i think i will surely be one of those daughter-in-laws who engage in constant arguments with mother- and sister-in-laws.

cried so hard now my eyes are swollen and puffy.

at the same time, i am damn stressed about money issues.
credit card bills, repayment of education and personal loans, daily expenditures and all other miscellaneous expense items are piling up again.

still, there are some events which are worth a smile or two admist all unhappiness.
loves it when baby shuffles her fingers through and blow dry my hair every night.
loves it when i get to hold onto bol bol and clench onto baby's arms so gently as i fall asleep.
loves it when i get my goodnight and goodbye kisses from baby every single day and night.
loves it when baby holds onto my hands so tightly and asks of me not to go.
loves it when my heart aches as i see tears rolling down baby's face and she tries hard to catch her breaths in between wails.
loves it when i see tears brimming in baby's eyes simply because i cried so helplessly.

oh ya, i gave baby's family a treat @ Jumbo (Riverside Point) Restaurant last night.
the bill came up to $258.
hmmm. it is almost equivalent to my reunion dinner @ Jumbo (Serangoon Gardens) Restaurant early this year.

i think baby's parents as well as granny were pretty satisfied and happy with the meal, although auntie did warn me not to eat such expensive meals too often.
now the parents are "settled".
but how should i settle the sister?
sigh~