i am constantly reminded that i cant have the best of both worlds.

who is it who cannot let go?

to a certain extent, i am beginning to suspect if i am that one?

baby has been nice.
i had my zhu cheong fan this morning.
poor baby woke up at as early as 645 to rush to the coffeeshop to buy me breakfast.
i was shocked.
i was pleased.

then i felt troubled.
the two wonderful persons remind me every now and then that i just cant enjoy the best of both worlds.

why?

i have to choose just 1 world and survive in there.
that reminds me of maple story.
when a character is created, you will have to decide which virtual world that character is to be in, then stick to that world till the end of time.

have i chosen mine?
i thought i had?

baby asked last night on our way back from the coffeeshop if that story has ended.
i gave a bad answer.
i said, "dont know".

baby shook her head back thereafter.
i dont know if she really was upset or was only playing around with me.

been staying in baby's house so often i can hardly remember how my parents look.
suddenly misses papa and mama.
perhaps i should re-gain my own life after this long a time.
perhaps it should not all be about one single person.
i want my friends around me every now and then.
the new sexy mum shall be my new target.
i should probably pay her a visit today after work.
she'll surely be at home anyway.
so she'll definitely be a good target.
i should try to rot at her place and accompany her and the baby boy instead of always hanging around in baby's house.
that would be healthier, wouldnt it?

i also feel like going to chalets.