i hate emotional roller-coaster rides.

i dont like to feel happy during one moment and unhappy at the very next second.

if it's meant to be an unhappy day, let me just start with an unhappy morning and get done with the unhappiness as soon as possible, hopefully with a happier ending.
if the day has been blessed with a happy beginning, let me not experience any unhappiness for the rest of the day. if that is not possible, then fucking let the unhappiness continue for the rest of the entire day and i shall fall asleep as an unhappy person but wake up to a better, happier day the next day!

it seems like something is going wrong.
something, no matter how insignificant or little, is just not right.

i do not feel right.
i get frustrated, irritated and angry too often.

i am so demoralized.
the feeling of escaping from everything and starting afresh again is daunting me.
but i dont like to feel this way.

i think i am those kinda irresponsible mothers who will just throw their babies out of the windows should they ever cry non-stop.

my life is unhappy per se.
i dont need another someone to add on to my miseries, do i?

fuck la.

BOO!