back from tuition.

it's a rainy day.
the atmosphere is no longer filled with a sense of melancholy though.

it's all because of you, baby >.<

be it sunshine or rain, the thought of you in mind brings smiles to my face.

caught a glimpse of a chinese show on the cable tv earlier.
it brought me back to the china trip earlier this year.
i looked back and reflected.
even stupidly tried to recap that indescribable sadness.

i'm glad i couldnt.

i remembered some specific events, such as sitting at one end of the huge balcony for hours facing the vast sea and crying so hard i thought i would die during the trip perhaps owing to dehydration or something, experiencing tremendous mood swings and not desiring to speak a single word when i am naturally a talkative girl, not having the slightest control over my appetite and wailing in the bathroom as i showered in an attempt to not reveal the fact that i was so terribly upset and hurt.

those were such horrible days.

still, i chose to love all over again.
why?
i dont exactly know.

been asking myself every now and then why i love her.
no answer came to my mind.

i just do. =)

listened to this song by gigi leung this afternoon while i was making my way to my student's place.
the lyrics depict how painful love is yet people simply choose to turn a blind eye and go through the same hurts over and over.

why?
should we ask that question?
will there be an answer by the end of the day?

baby,
do you know that you have filled my life with bliss over the past month?
i want this idea to sink so thoroughly and completely into your mind. >.<
thank you for loving me... ...