for the first time in 23 years, i dread marrying into a rich, big family.

when the family gets too big, mess sets in; when the big family is somehow rich, money issues create even greater mess.

like my bro commented, perhaps everyone wants to be in power and have the say.

i have one thought: growing old is really REALLY scary. suddenly, i think it's wise that FeLFeL had once wanted to die before she grows old.

and i have another question: why is it that somehow the richer one becomes, the "stingy-/ier" one is?

i just discussed the issue with dad. he also thinks that that is one point worth thinking about. but that is the way life is, and he have quited thinking about that since donkey years ago.

i am not stingy. but i can feel that i am increasingly more mindful about being overly-generous these days. perhaps like what FeL says, i expect people to deliver equivalent standards of treatments to me always. but i think i am usually "under-treated/valued", especially to those dearest or at least nearest to me. as to why, i cant provide a reason. i dont think i look like i am a good target to bully. that's for sure. =)

sigh~

we should all do a better job in caring for those around us while we can. >>> dedicated to all rosyth folks.