school officially commenced yesterday. being an intelligent ass, i decided that my school shall only commence next week.

double min says i should not skip lessons too often. right in my mind at that moment, i thought, who cares? no one's gonna do or say anything so long as i produce the results". however, being an intelligent being, i did not just blurt out what i had going through my mind,obviously. she cares. and i know that.

and you are right. i'm THAT arrogant.

wahahahahahaha!~

anyway, i was telling mum this evening that i've got nothing except for a fucking smart brain.

woooOOO~ can your heart still take it?

if i were myself, i'd love to give myself a punch at this point of time.

so anyway, i woke up only at 4pm this noon. okie. i do hate myself for that. because by the time i rose from that damn bed, most people would be only 1 hour away from their official knocking off time. that's EXTREMELY bad of me. like i always say, we would be spending the rest of our lives sleeping in the damn coffin (or an urn in singapore's case) from the moment we bid the world goodbye till ternity, so there's really NO NEED for us to sleep so much now.

here i am, wide awake and typing away at 2am in the morning. this is retribution, isn't it?

so what should i be sharing tonight? =hmmmMM=...

MARRIAGE? or RELATIONSHIPS to begin with.

do relationships start with loneliness/lust or liking?

there are 2 possible categories i may come up with>>>
1. loneliness/lust>need for a relationship (with just anyone)>search>meet-ups>liking>relationship
2. liking>need for a relationship (with a special and identified someone)>relationship

which do you belong to?

i kinda discussed the issue with a "friend" late last night over a prata supper.

while i proposed that any relationship should gracefully fall into the 2nd category, both of us agreed unaimously that 99% of the relationships on earth begin with either sexual desires or the need to drive loneliness out of one's live.

how sad?

we do not have a relationship because we unknowingly fell in love with a person but deliberately searched for one person to fall in love with so as to satisfy a need? am i right?

personally, amongst the 3 relationships i've had, just ONE pathetic one (which lasted the longest, mind you) came unexpectedly. that one gal came into my life just when having a relationship was the absolute last thing on my mind for i was so god-damn fuckin busy with work and school. for the other two, i actually MADE THEM HAPPEN intentionally.

...

i suddenly feel that this entry is getting boring.

bye, world.

oh, that's how i am. unpredictable.