Long time no blog!

People, i'm still alive and kicking!!!

Happy V-day to all!

Though mine kinda suck-ed.

Sigh...

Nothing good is happening these days.

Anyway, i skipped lessons today, not because i wanted to have a super major celebration for the occasion, but that i was too tired to drag my lethargic body to freaky boon lay. Pal says it's now no longer an issue for her to embark on a 2-hr journey to get to school, but that's not the case for me! I'm still not used to having to travel sooooo damn far in order to be educated.

Spent the night over at dear dear's place during the past 2 days. Taught est-the-imp stats. Exams for the poly students are merely a week away, and that girl actually spent 2 hours on gunbound this evening. How cool huh?! Anyway, pal and i aren't much better, recalling what we did last year when exams were, too, a week away. LOL!

I presented my V-Day pressie in an exceptionally SPECIAL way.

I threw them on the table, said something like "take it if it pleases you", and left the room angrily.

Obviously, things were not meant to be like this!

Some negative stuffs just happened before that, and SCREWED and TARNISHED my well-planned V-Day surprise.

When love is strong and passion is extreme, one can always feel the sparks which get ignited when two lovers hug.

I somehow don't really feel much when i hug my dearie these days.

What to do? All the quarrels and bu-shuang-ness are blinding my heart, killing the love and passion day by day.

Had such an intense negative feeling towards dear dear 2 days ago that i left her po po's place, feeling angry, frustrated, sad and suffocated, and ready to face a break-up. Ran my way home, and all i thought of was to propose a break-up, then pack her stuffs that she have over at my place and return what ought to be at her place instead of mine. Things were terrible.

That night, i supposed i didn't have the capacity to love her anymore. Or probably, people who are toooo different really don't make a good pair. One will have to suffer alot alot alot in order to cope with the other party. If that's the case, each will be better off without the other.

Sigh.

Then yesterday was another terrible night.

When will all these shitty stuff end? Every single little thing is awful now.

Take for example this noon when we were discussing whether to meet after her work. Anyway, we're meeting purely becos it's V-Day and lovers are supposed to be together. There was absolutely no enthusiasm, no willingness and 0 passion. Hearing how sianz she sounded to meet after her 5 hours of work, i lost 101% enthusiasm and passion once again.

Pal went through a break-up this noon. (But things are back to before the break-up now, perhaps better.) When that piece of news came to me, i could so well understand what pal was grumbling about. Sigh. Guess we're in the same boat.

V-Day?! What a good V-Day this time round? Can't remember how i spent the past 2 V-Days with ade, but i suppose the 2 occasions shouldn't be as bad as this time round, since it didn't really leave me with much impression. This year's memorable man!

Did nothing today. Absolutely nothing. Merely watched some episodes of a serial drama and slacked around. Fixed my new web cam. Oh yar, my V-Day pressie for my other half is a web cam from Logitech. Nice one! The decision to purchase a web cam was finalized bout a month ago, and pal and i spent 2 hours in Sim Lim yesterday trying to get the best deal within our budgets. Skipped our law lecture in order to do that! Then went over to Bugis Junction to get the packaging for our respective gifts. Never knew there are so many in singapore who would do last-min V-Day shopping!!! All the shops selling cards and little gifts and wrapping paper and gift boxes were crowded to the max!

Had sakae sushi for lunch today. Is that even considered as a V-Day meal? HA HA HA! She's on her way to my house now, with $50 worth of durians. That is yet another form of V-DAY celebration of ours.

Thought i could expect something more romantic than these that she have given me. Is Paris trip the only romantic issue I can have?

Skipped french lesson today. Die. I have been skipping so much of that that i may no longer be able to catch up.

Whatever. I wanna shut down my brain today. I'm not interested in anything.