It's all bout money, i guess.

I freaking got scolded again!

I'm just so sick of all those scoldings that go on everyday. They have became a part of my life. Is there anything i can do to change the apparent fucked-up fate i have?

I'm so damn sick of everything.

There are so many "if only"s going on in my twirling mind right now.

But the ultimate 'if only' is, IF ONLY I DON'T HAVE THIS KINDA LOUSY MAN AS A FATHER!

Argh!

Stress level is building up again. School has yet to become a problem, but the stupid old man in my house is killing me. I feel like locking myself up and not being in contact with anyone, not even my dearest BaBy. I only wanna have me in the world for the time being. I wish all the sickening issues would have became a matter of the past by the time i unlock myself. If only i have the ability to get away from all the shit that's happening in my life right now! I wanna fly away, to a faraway place where i can start anew without having to bear the burden of having a family which isn't like a family in any case.

I hate life for what it is to me!

Someone please tell me what's the meaning of being alive and breathing?!

Feel like crying out loud. I'm collapsing. I feel lethargic. I'm dying.

Just what the hell is going on?

Nobody's here! Nobody!!!

I'm alone, yet not alone. I don't know. Everything just sucks.

Somebody please bring me away. I'll follow whoever who can bring me to whatever places other than my house.