Haizzz

Why must things turn out this way? Am i too demanding? Moody? Cranky?

Pal's on my side, that's for sure.

Last paper is less than 24 hours away. No solid plans for tomorrow yet. Many invitations for clubbing session at night though. It's been a substantially long while since i clubbed. Maybe i ought to get out of the pathetic space i've created for myself all these while and inhale some fresh air from the outside world. Maybe i really should.

I've gotta learn to take things easy, or at least easier. Being too seriously involved and committed makes life difficult for myself. When one gives alot, one expects alot in return. Perhaps i should only learn to accept things as they are. If things are way too much for me to accept, then don't accept.

It was a flaw on my part right from the start, so i've gotta bear the consequences.

Ought to know better than to have not done that in the first place.

I'm easily irritated? Not when i'm with my buddy, pals and friends. So why? Because i expected too much? I should learn to blur the line between friends and lover in that case.

Will i ever become numb towards disappointment in everyday life? Maybe.

Oh my! It seems like there are uncertainties all around me. To cope with the uncertainties and hedge the risks, i ought to perform sensitivity analysis, followed by scenario analysis, then conduct a simulation analysis and lastly, sum up the evaluation with a breakeven analysis. LOL! All stuffs regarding Financial Management - my last examination paper.

Haizzz

Why? Just why?

Have always thought that people are 'cheap' by nature. Most of us do discard the one who loves us the most and go for the one whom we love, isn't it? How 'cheap' of us?

Felt like i'm only just some kinda leisure activity; one which people gets involved in when they have too much time to spare and have got nothing better to do. Why can't be ranked first? Am i such an unprofitable investment that is not worth the kinda time and attention a computer game can demand? What the hell? The thought of being ranked after a fucked up game makes my blood boil.

I suppose i'm slowly getting too deeply involved. Gotta pull myself out of the dirt before i get drowned. How can i actually follow AAA's footsteps and view my lover as everything? It's too tiring on my side and perhaps pressurizing on the other party's side, most probably.

So, in an effort to reduce the tremendous stress on both parties, the one and only way out is to get a life outside the relationship. Gotta spend more time with friends and my disgusting family from now on. The feeling of not being able to live without a person's presence is extremely terrible and should not even exist! No one can't live without another person - that's a solid fact.

Alternatively, diversify - which i'll obviously not do given that i don't really have any good catches around. LOL!

Bored to the max!

What should i do now? Ar...Er...Erm...Hmmm...Should not get out of the house, i think. What if i get drunk? I've still gotta make my way to freaky boon lay and sit for the last paper which i can forsee myself failing. It's kinda too early to sleep. Erm...Hmmm...Stupid pal! You should have just made your way here and watch DVD with me till daylight! See lar, now i've got nothing to do liaoz...

Sianzzz