Dear dear said life's like a jigsaw puzzle; everyone's lives is like a touch-screen jigsaw puzzle. Each piece of puzzle makes up bits and pieces of memories in our lives. Each time we touch the screen, memories will come running back.

I can hardly remember when i last talked to someone regarding such philosophies. Have always enjoyed such talks regarding life and what it is all about. Perhaps i'm just too busy these days. Or i could have been too lazy?

Anyway, life is just a piece of shit to me now. Nothing but dirt and shit.

Am i not madly in love anymore? For the whole of yesterday night, dear dear mentioned more than once that i don't love her anymore. It was probably meant to be a casual sentence from out of nowhere, but it did set me pondering. For the past few days, my heart didn't really feel anything much except frustration, anger, sadness and all the negative stuffs. Positive feelings such as loving someone and being loved did not surface. Is it all because this is a disgusting period in my life?

I hate the current moment.

Each time i walk home, i get damn pissed off with the idea that i'm coming home. This is really bad. I feel like i'm back to my secondary days, back to the period of my life when everything suddenly collapsed and i so dreaded the idea of being home. I had mingli, wong and sumeth standing so close to me back then. Now, is dear dear the one? Somehow, the bond among the clique then is stronger than the one i share with dear dear now. Then, i knew the three VIPs of my life could be here for me anytime. Now, dear dear is not always available. There have been so many times when i wished she could be here but she couldn't. Back then, i was a strong gal. Now, i'm nothing more than a weakling. Am i too old to be a strong and courageous fellow? Courage dies off as we age, doesn't it?