I'm taking a break form academic work.

Phew!

Listening to the marvelous musical creations from Kenny G so as to relax myself a little.

NTU - Haiz. It's stressful.

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Today's supposed to be a working day. But, it turned out to be any other friday, whereby i have only one tuition session from 730 to 9 at night. Arranged to have two other sessions so that my friday would be occupied, but students informed of the cancellation and re-scheduling of their sessions one after another this morning. Dear dear won't be free tonight. She's gonna catch "Xue Lang Hu" with trina. I wanted to find some other programs for myself, but the one and only session for tonight is kinda stuck at a time which doesn't permit me to get out of my house before and after the session. It's pay day, so i wouldn't want to cancel the session. Besides, PSLE's around the corner.

Trina's going through depression. She's under anti-depression medication. Dear dear confirmed she really is depressed, judging by the manner she laughs at one moment and cries at the very next second.

I feel like a sinner somehow.

I'm building my happiness upon her depression, am i?

I know what kinda advice Cindy would offer if she were here with me. She'd ask me to back out and not commit this kinda somewhat wrongdoing.

Haiz.

Dear dear commented she, too, sank into depression because of Jaime and Trina previously.

But, that doesn't mean trina ought to land herself in the same kinda situation now. Things don't and shouldn't work this way.

On one hand, i hope that trina will be much better off after tonight's event with dear dear; on the other hand, i'm not totally alright with the situation.

Contradicting life.

Woke up at 9 this morning, continued with the compilation and editing of FM report. Should have completed it yesterday night but i failed to stick to the schedule again.

=A million apologies, pal.=

Finally completed the draft at 11 after two hours. Met dear dear for lunch. Laksa again. Haha, my dear dear's a laksa freak.

Anyway, i got three ultimate shocks of my life yesterday.

First, i got a shock when dear dear's sister (the older one of the two younger sisters), Ju, picked up my call and told me over the phone that she's trina. I guess i need to make some clarifications here. I wasn't shocked to hear that trina's at the end of the line, but because i had thought that it was Mrs Tang who answered the call, before Ju playfully told me she's trina. In actual fact, i was soooo kinda relieved when Ju claimed she's trina. I could at least be myself and say whatever i want in the way i want instead of being tongue-tied if it were Mrs Tang who answered the call.

Second, i was washing the dishes in the kitchen in the middle of the night when i kinda saw a shadow approaching from the living hall from the corner or my right eye. Turned around and i saw this figure 'zoomed' past me! I was like 'AHHH!!!' Ghost?! And it turned out to be mischievous FeLFeL who had nothing better to do than to run into the kitchen in a hopping manner. What the hell?

LOL! LOL! LOL!

Dear dear, your silly acts brought me lotsa laughter recently...Haha...Wahahaha...

Third, something strange and eerie came to my mind just before i fell asleep last night. A weird kinda 'illusion'. Wouldn't term that as a 'dream' because i knew clearly i wasn't asleep yet. Was in the process of falling asleep when this image kept running through my mind and simply refused to go away though i tried hard not to think bout it. ~I was standing in the living hall at a spot somewhere between my parents' and bro's rooms. I was facing my room. Suddenly, out of nowhere, this 'devil' which was dressed in black and have a red and 'demonic' face came out from my room and slowly closed the door behind him. Yar, it's a 'him'. With one hand on the door knob, the demon turned back to look at me.~

=Wail=

It was the weirdest kinda illusion that has ever happened to me. Scared me outta hell!

30 mins passed while i typed this entry. Time really flies huh?

Took a look at dear dear when she was buying bbt earlier. I came to realize she look so much more 憔悴 now. Is it due to the amount of time i demand from her? Or the problem with juggling between me and trina? Or maple story? Or is it too tiring a chore to be with me?

=Heart aches=

Took a look at myself in the mirror when i came back from lunch. Suddenly, i realized i've also changed. I just look different. Or perhaps, i feel differently now. Somehow, i just know that i'm different as compared to the past.

Can't we just remain the same? Changes are often too tiring. They really are.